Its taken me a very long time to come back to this site because I said that when I did I would be introducing my children, and naturally that meant telling you about my oldest son, Lucas.  You wouldn't believe what a task it is for me to sum up this amazing, challenging child. 

In short, my oldest is Lucas Adam and he is 8 years old.  He's neither tall, nor short.  He has very short hair, so I'm actually fairly unsure what color it is supposed to be- I think a darker blond.  He has amazing green eyes.  He is a loving child with a very strong will. 

I found out I was expecting Lucas before I graduated high school.  I started dating Adam, my husband, towards the beginning of my senior year.  We were madly in love and spent a ton of time together, but we weren't having sex.  We did get in trouble for having sex- constantly.  I admit now that we were late getting home sometimes, we did of course 'fool around', but mostly we just talked, and we loved being together.  At the time it felt like nothing else mattered- like there might not be another chance.   After a few months of getting in trouble at school, home and hearing about it from friends we did decide to 'do it'.  Once.  After that we felt bad, we chose not to do it again.  Two weeks later I bent down to tie my shoe before school and about threw up on my blue shag carpet.  For now I'll spare you the awkward and painful weeks and months that followed- but despite the turmoil I was excited to be having a baby and I bonded with him from the first moment I knew.

Adam and I were married before he was born and we were getting started in life.  We both were in college, we both worked and we had a cute little apartment to bring him home to.  Lucas came just a few days early as the result of an induction due to high blood pressure.  The entire labor and delivery process was only 1 hour and 12 minutes.  He was perfect. 

I was able to mostly be home with him, with a few hours a day in daycare for class.  I remember taking him everywhere with me.  He was such an alert baby! He hardly slept, I drove around for hours and hours with him (gas was cheaper).  Overall he was a good baby, so long as you keep moving.

Lucas was a very challenging toddler.  He really didn't sleep, some nights he was asleep just 4-6 hours.  No naps.  And the tantrums.    Not only would he lay on the floor and scream, but he'd spin himself around in a circle while kicking, he'd throw things, bang his head, it was so horrible.  He didn't forget either, he would scream himself to sleep and then wake up sometime in the night and continue right where he left off.  He also was one of those kids that can sneak out of the house.  Once we found him walking down the street in his pajama's long after we put him to bed and we had no idea how he got out, another time I found him crying on the front steps in January.  I still shudder thinking of what could have happened.  Since going to bed was always a fight and he was leaving the house., we eventually ended up reversing the lock on his bedroom door so we could put him in there and be sure he'd stay in his room. 

One of the hardest parts about being Lucas' mother is the judgement.  Some days it felt like nothing went easily for Lucas.  The usual discipline, activities, and routines didn't hold for Lucas, they would work for a day or a week and then he didn't care anymore.  Everyone had an opinion about what Adam and I should be doing.  Family, friends, professionals and strangers were always telling me at length what I needed to do.  I felt like I was always wrong.  For whatever reason Lucas always has clashed the most with me.  Adam and I had no idea what to do, we were young, and we fought a lot to the point I thought that my marriage was doomed.  To this day I a amazed I am still on good terms with my mother-in-law after the battles we had over this child.  It took a very, very long time to prove to 'everyone' and to myself that I was the one who knew Lucas best and we had to do what was best for us.  As Lucas got older we have learned to manage his sleeping difficulties, impulsiveness and the other challenges we've encountered on the way.  We butt heads a lot less, and with a little more understanding.

While Lucas is a challenging individual, these same traits make him fascinating and wonderful.  He is very determined, and so, so smart.  Starting school was one of the best things that happened to Lucas.  He loves routine!  He also loves homework- go figure!   This year we learned that Lucas, in 2nd grade, is reading at a middle school level and he loves it.  Lucas possesses an athletic ability that he definitely didn't get from me.  He's involved in Tae Kwon Do, baseball, football, and Boy Scouts.  He has a bunch of friends who call and shout hello wherever we go.  He's already had girls calling him- I'm less thrilled about that.   

He's an amazing little boy and I cannot wait to see what he will be- for sure he's going to do great things!!

I'm a little disoriented, here I am on a brand new blog and I'm honestly surprised.  I followed a link on my Xanga site and I wanted to make a comment on a blog- and I find myself here.  It seems like a nice place, I'm looking forward to this.

Just a brief intro on me, I am 27 and have been married to a wonderful guy for the past (almost) 9 years- he is my high school sweetheart.  I am the mother of 4 beautiful children.  Each of my children is very unique and challenging. I think they each deserve their own post, so for now I will simply tell you that I have 3 boys, ages 8, 3 and 1.  I have one daughter, age 6.  I find my children endless entertaining and challenging.  I recently went back to school to earn my degree in education after working for a number of years as a social worker in the victim service field.  I think that I deserve a whole post too, so I'll just say in short I love my kids, my husband, reading, video games, biking and sleep.  Oh, and writing.  I LOVE writing. 

I'm still reeling a little for having so effortlessly just made myself a new home, one I'm not even sure I can get back to now that I think of it, so I'm going to go find some chocolate and think about this awhile.  If anyone is out there please say hello! Alone is not one of my favorite things.